one of many in the wild, wild net.

Don’t subscribe to true.com. It’s a damn scam.

http://blog.xavier.ashe.com/blog/_archives/2005/10/11/1294838.html

Just see how the business advertises itself. It claims to be a dating service that matches people based on some kind of compatibility index (I tried it just for shits and giggles, it asks you like 100 questions to determine whatever mental profile or some bullshit that you are). However, the ads are all pictures of females in various states of undress… hardly relating to that compatibility index that’s supposed to be their distinguishing characteristic.

And besides, within the last two days I’ve been getting spammed by the truebeginnings.com, which is from true.com to let me know when a “girl” has “winked” at me. Let it be known all the “girls” that “winked” at me are just empty profiles with no descriptions. Seeing as how I haven’t even visited the site for over 2 months, have never subscribed to them ever, it is extremely suspect that suddenly I become very popular over one weekend. It doesn’t add up, for me. I can only believe that they’re just fluffing me with random profiles, and that these “girls” don’t really exist. It’s additionally suspect seeing as how I’ve hidden my profile and I’m still getting winks. It’s additionally additionally suspect seeing as how I try to cancel my account, and the account cancellation page doesn’t seem to work correctly.

I hate these people. The internet can be used in so many more better ways, but I guess right now it’s the new “wild wild west”, the new lawless frontier where roadside bandits run free with no law enforcement to hunt them down. My fellow internet denizens, be like the pioneers of the days of the old west and arm yourselves. Arm yourselves with knowledge.

-TJ

Well, I got about 15 mins before I have to report for BAY HO. But I’ll spend ten of those blabbing here.

Off duty time has been kind of a drag. I have less than 5 friends that I think I can hang out with… I guess it takes time if you’re not a damn social butterfly. I’ve been picking up alot of volunteer projects just to get out of the dorms and out doing *something* with all this free time I have. Lately though (within the last 7 days) I’ve been hacking away at my formerly-defunct website just to tool around with PHP and MySQL… I need to keep my scripting skills refreshed lest I toss them to the wind like so much useless Hip-Hop dance class information (Yeah… I got suckered into that when I was 17 but I’ll leave that story for another day….).

Anyway, off duty last couple of days has consisted of working on this site and hacking through Metal Gear Solid 3. I really like the game, it has a cool retro vibe due to the setting (the height of the Cold War) and music (throwbacks to old James Bond flicks, complete with the sexy theme songs… just do a search for “Snake Eater” on your favorite fileshare network of choice. Acutally don’t, I’m opposed to piracy. ). God I love that theme song.

What else… I was cleaning out my desk yesterday and I found the rosary I picked up back in BMT way in the back of one of my drawers. God always surprises me the way he tells me to do stuff. As soon as I picked up my rosary I felt this electric shock in my body, and I knew I had to go to church. It’s weird. The shock wasn’t pain, it was a rush of energy, like I was suddenly imbued with the Spirit for a few moments. I had to go to church because I realized I haven’t experienced that kind of soul-moving for a long time… pretty much since Confirmation and coming to this base. Anyway, church was revitalizing, and I am renewed with spiritual energy, the kind of juice that lets me handle any situation, no matter how mentally draining or otherwise trying it can be. Thank you God.

Speaking of mentally draining, It’s Bay Ho inf 5 minutes! Hooray! At least I’ll have some actual cleaning to do today, seeing as how over the weekend I didn’t do jack around the dorm. I’m going to run through that list and make sure I do each and every item today.

Oh… Happy Halloween! And happy birthday to a couple of friends that happen to be born today. In previous years, not this year. I don’t know too many fetuses personally. Actually… that’s kind of creepy just thinking about it.

Creepy like Halloween! Hooray!

-TJ

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-TJ

I’ve got my game face on! I’m brewing some shit up, and it’s gonna be FLYYYYY…..

Not really. Well yeah it is, but maybe just to me. I’m not gonna worry about indefinite long term and just let the code fly.

Bay Ho – 1 week detail where I’m tasked with keeping my dorm building cleaned up. Requires no thinking whatsoever, and I’m by myself the entire day. It’s depressing.

ah…. just 2 more days of this skull-druggery and I’m on to better things!

I must write this down before the sear in my mind’s eye fades away….

I want to be involved. I need to give back. Too much is at stake in our world–this brilliant, spinning ball of water, rock, life and consciousness.

To that end, I need to put on this site a way where I can start topics that people can and should debate. Injustices that need to be revealed and disseminated, or ideas that require debate from a wide spectrum of minds and upbringings will be put up for discussion. I need to combine this with what little I know about Search Engine Optimization so that when people ask questions on the search engines (as I do once in a while), my site can be up high and therefore will have more potential to draw more people into the debate.

Ugh…. I know I had more to put down than that. More relevant to that topic. I’ll work on what I just saw in my head for now.

Well, here’s a NEW new website, because the new one was actually sitting on my HD all throughout my military training in a “beta” mode, and even though you may or may not have seen it for only 2 weeks, I’ve seen it since last August 2004.

Anyway, I’m gonna see if I can at least touch this website a bit more regularly, although not everything that comes from me will be a rant these days, seeing as how I’m generally well satisfied with the way my life is going right now and thusly have nothing to rant about.

I’m going to slowly evolve this one into something that I will finally be proud to let survive for more than a few months. I know one thing I need to learn is to not just tear down all my work and restart, but just to change things as needed, I think. Totally restarting might be great, but I want to learn to adapt to the mistakes I make and grow regardless… analogue to life, maybe? Anyway, stay tuned I guess.

About life–still doing the same old stuff, which day-to-day is really just adapting to change. I’m doing alot, getting involved in alot, trying to raise as much (good) hell as I can. I am still looking for a good church to attend… the South spoiled me with it’s great religious communities. I can’t find one up here that really shines… the churches I’ve been to so far have all seemed to stray from one or two of the more subtle teachings of Jesus, and none have so far been totally humble or seemed all-embracing like Triangle Chapel back at Keesler AFB. I must mention that I miss chatting with Deacon Moragas and Mr. John Leday, two of my spiritual mentors so-to-speak during my time in Mississippi. I’ve been meaning to email them but when I’m at work, my mind is at work, and I don’t even think of getting in touch with friends while on duty because my mind is always actively searching for something work-related to do. I guess deep down I just want to be able to look a civilian in the eye and tell him/her that I earned their tax dollars today because I didn’t fuck around at work.

And, for better or for worse (hehe)… I’m in love with a girl I haven’t seen in person. Go ahead… tell me I’m an idiot/being conned/I’m weak/I’m desperate/I’m somehow less than a man/etc. I don’t really care. As a testament to a man that can mentally multi-task, she is *always* on my mind. Out of respect to her I won’t mention her name or post her picture. And truth be told, I don’t really want to… as open as I am with my life, this is one thing I want to keep for myself. I’ll share descriptions of the feeling, but the mental mementos are mine to cherish. For starters, it’s like when I close my eyes it’s not dark like a closet, but dark like midnight under a starry sky in the wilderness, away from the city lights. A subtle difference. It’s hard for me to see bad things now, or see things in a bad light. It’s like yet another veil has been lifted from my sight.

Anyway, enough about that. I’m keeping the rest of my thoughts on her for now. For the rest of this week I’m the BAY ORDERLY for my dorm. Hooray. Not really, because it’s also called “Bay Ho”. For 7 days including the coming weekend I work from 0700 to 1300 or 1400 cleaning up around the dorm. I’ve known that I would be doing this for about 2 or 3 weeks now. Last few folks I saw doing this crap, I saw them just cleaning windows, but the same pile of dried puke has been on the ground for over a month next to my door. So I’m determined to make the most of my next 7 days by REALLY cleaning, starting with these *nasty* trashcans around the building and that dried barf.

Then I’ll wash the windows again.

Oh well. At least I get off a bit early. And it’s not like I do anything with my weekends, anyway, except the same crap I do when I’m off duty on regular days, like do my CDCs (which still aren’t done. I’m a damn slacker.), work on my webpage, plan my future, call my baby (The Right One Asia card is SWEET), and just stay productive overall.

Alright, that’s enough for now. I need to hit the pillow because I have a slight cold and I want to zzzzzzzzzz.