The times, they are a-changing

Howdy howdy.

Day 1 of TDY to Fort Huachuca for a class I can’t say anything about. Loose lips sink ships and all.

But what was I thinking about… oh yeah. Change. Lots of stuff is changing, but such is life, right? My bro Alvin and I had the following exchange of words earlier today:

WheresMyRailgun: So you and [kulet] official?

TJ (USAF, Rank E-3): official?

TJ (USAF, Rank E-3): well we haven’t signed any papers or taken any vows

WheresMyRailgun: Like if someone asks me how many of my old roommates have girlfriends, I can say 2

TJ (USAF, Rank E-3): Haha

TJ (USAF, Rank E-3): yeah

Yep. You read that right. I have a girlfriend now, I guess. And the reason I say “I guess” is because I never really thought about what was happening between myself and my now-girlfriend “kulet”, I kinda just went with the flow of my own heart and never really gave a thought of what my “status” was with her or anything, but when you get to the point after the initial insane longing for your significant other and those insane feelings become replaced by more grounded-in-reality but nevertheless intense feelings for her, *and* the same is being reciprocated back to you, I think it’s safe to call her my girlfriend at the very least.

So what’s next? I’m just playing it by ear, really. We communicate our feelings, so there are no guessing games about that between us. What am I playing by ear then? Issues with my work. I’m involved in stuff that I can’t discuss, and if you don’t know what that means then I’m sorry because I can’t explain it to you, not because I don’t know the words to use but just because. And I mean “just because”. Anyway, it’s been so long since I’ve been at this point with a girl I’ve pretty much forgotten what to do, and what events happen when. I think in a sense that’s a good thing, though, because knowing myself I tend to screw things up when I over-worry about making things not as bad as “last time”, so now that I have almost no memory of my past romances, I feel I can court “kulet” without the pressure of jacking up, because inside I know I am a little bit older, a little bit more knowledgeable, a little bit more secure with myself, and overall a little bit more optimistic, or at least less pessimistic.

Anyway, my feelings for kulet have gone from longing to hold her in my arms (and all that other mushy crap that I never thought I’d feel) to longing to be with her. I call her all the time and we talk, and we had our first mental spar last night when we were talking about certain quasi-political groups in her country. It was a learning experience and an eye openner for me, a pleasant one regardless of the topics we discussed. But my girl loves to debate, and I love to spar analytically with politics, so in that sense we are a match. We also share very similar views on sex, relationships, religion, and personal goal-setting, and other things I just can’t seem to conjure from memory right now.

This weekend I’ll be dropping by LA to visit the fam and show two friends around my hometown. I’m pretty sure mom and dad don’t read my blog, so I can mention here that I intend to “introduce”, so to speak, my girl to them. I’m gonna show them my pictures that kulet sent me, her letter to me which is not so “hot” that I can’t show it to my parents, and hopefully I can have them talk to her for a little bit while I’m at the house. That’s what I’m really excited to go home for.

But enough about that. I’m still a bit leery about sharing *that* part of my life to the blogosphere, but feel like I should. After all, that’s part of my life, and my life should be noted in the device I built to note stuff that happens in my life, right?

So anyway, fact is that right now I’m in Sierra Vista, AZ attending a class on “stuff”. So far so good, the class itself is blah but what can you expect learning about “stuff” in the military. Me and the boys Reed and Waugh checked out Tucson, AZ yesterday afternoon, and they took a good amount of pictures. We checked out Davis-Monthan AFB and took pictures of the airplane graveyard (BTW Thank you Google Earth for tipping me to the fact that there was even such a thing nearby - http://earth.google.com). At some point this week I want to check out Bisbee and Tombstone, which are small towns in the local area that seem to be worth visiting.

My brain is hitting that wall, but I need to stay up so I’m probably gonna drive to walmart right now and buy some red bull or some kind of energy drink to wake back up. In the meantime, take it easy.

-TJ