Well… they awarded Senior Airman Below-The-Zone today.
And I won it. 
More to come later… right now I’m kinda in shock. Part of me knew to expect this, but a good part of me still is kinda shocked… it’s my first promotion in *any* kind of work I’ve ever had….
I need to reflect.
-TJ
Man… I’ve just been reading through my posts here, and I must say I’ve been on ups and downs, ins and outs. It just so happens that I feel like I’m on the low part of my mentality cycle right now, but in realizing that I’ve received a boost back up because I know I’ll be alright. I’ll have good days, I’ll have bad days. I’ll have lots of good days strung together, then I’ll have lots of bad days strung together.
But such is life! From the day I entered the Air Force, through the days I was marching around thinking “What the fuck did I get myself into?”, through the days I found myself at the top of my tech school squadron, then the days I was genuinely in love with a girl in the Philippines, to the day I was genuinely out of love with that same girl in the Philippines, through finding this thing on base (APAH) which I am in contact with people kinda like me… Up, down, up down… up up down down left right left right B A SELECT START. and now I have 30 lives!
OK but seriously. I guess I just want to mention this because on the off chance that you the reader have a string of shitty days, just realize that it’s normal and the sun eventually shines. For me, the shining sun is what gets me through my days of darkness. Maybe this is a universally-known fact or truth, but I feel hardly anyone ever talks about it.
And on a sadder note, I want to pay my respects to Khetti and Shiva, R.I.P. 2006, with a haiku.
Snakes, misunderstood.
I learned to see past the scales.
These two helped me see.
-TJ
God,
Please help me learn to be as close to infinitely patient as You. Amen.
-TJ
God,
Please help me learn to relax and not stress over the little shit. Amen.
-TJ
So. One of the things I need to address is balance. I think I excel at work and making things happen, but my balance to work is totally out of whack because I don’t not-work as much as I work. I feel like when I get home I’m still an Airman, but probably because I live in GI housing, eat GI food, etc…
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[10:17] Spawn: Clean, baby, clean!
[10:18] Spawn: Use your meat maid
[10:18] PsychoGears: meat maid?
[10:18] Spawn: Haha, nevermind.
[10:19] PsychoGears: yeah room is getting cleaned, just taking a break and working on guild website
[10:19] PsychoGears: god i suck….
[10:19] PsychoGears: I take a break by working on something else…
[10:19] PsychoGears: I was just posting about this on my website.
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I swear to God. If I’m going to live to be older than 50 years old I’m going to have to learn how to not be productive for more than 2 minutes at a time.
-TJ