Now: gears are running, shift is in neutral

One of the cool thing about having a hyperactive mind that constantly analyzes my memories (and then analyzes my analyses) is that once in a blue moon, I’m blessed with a comforting thought of at least one thing that I know I should be and am thankful for. That single thought right now is how lucky I am to have such awesome parents, blessed with a non-materialistic gauge to success. Happiness for my family is when you see the people you love are happy. My parents are proud of me, whatever I do. They stick by me when I have problems that are big or awkward or whatever, and they tell me how proud they are of me whenever I do something great.

I hope I can learn that sense of center, that balance of spirit, where in giving you feel like you receive… I have alot of it right now, but they have it perfect, whereas I still have my own selfish tendencies.

Lord God, please give me the strength and capability to align my gauge of happiness not to how many toys I have, friends I hang out with, or girls that fall for me, but in the happiness of others. Help me to learn to care for other people and make them happy, and in doing so enhance my own peace of mind.

-TJ