Yes, 26. I feel old, yet not really. I’m still immature, but 26 isn’t 13…. that’s the only way I can describe my sentiment about aging.
Good night, and thanks for all the well wishes, everyone. Even all you complete strangers who decided to ICQ me all weekend and today… that was quite interesting.
-TJ
Okay.
So here’s an admission. I’ve been self-occupying by playing lots of games lately, but not by doing anything constructive outside of work. I’m advancing well enough along the enlisted ranks as my recent BTZ can attest, but really that should come natural if I am to ever become a General in a few decades, or be voted into office, or do SOMETHING with my life that will make a difference.
So one of my best friends Kyuu Hee suggested, since I finally broke down and complained that I was in a funk, that I try doing things that are outside my normal comfort zone. You know… sometimes she’s so right I’m amazed that I didn’t see her solution before she did. I mean, talk about going outside my comfort zone, that’s exactly what I did in Feb ‘04 when I first met up with the Air Force recruiter. I was just looking for my next job, and gave my resume to USAF, CIA, and FBI, telling myself that I would go with whoever picked me up first. The enlisted military recruiter (SSgt Hernandez) of course picked me up first, and the rest is history.
So… I gotta make it my project. I’ll try signing up for a class next semester at one of these local schools, and see what happens. I might as well take my speech class, so I can get that over with and added to my CCAF.
I guess what I gotta do now is hustle up on my web project…. I’ve been slacking last couple of weeks due to standby, sickness, recovery, etc.
-TJ
Just got the snot beat out of me on Mario Kart DS by some dude named Chiro Wan. GG.
-TJ
I don’t know what the hell just happened in my brain no less than 5 minutes ago, but suddenly as I was drifting off to sleep, something I can only describe as a deep anguish took hold of my heart.
I suddenly wished (desperately, I have to admit) that I could find a girl with a heart of gold and the kind of beauty that comes from within and radiates outward. Kind, generous, understanding, self-respecting, non-materialistic….
I knew a girl like this once, and I let her go because she lives in the Philippines, and it’s not fair to both of us if we waited for each other without realistically exploring our options more local to both of us.
But damn… if she were already here, I probably wouldn’t be feeling this way.
-TJ, the suddenly anguished