A cup that suddenly fills up with tears

I don’t know what the hell just happened in my brain no less than 5 minutes ago, but suddenly as I was drifting off to sleep, something I can only describe as a deep anguish took hold of my heart.

I suddenly wished (desperately, I have to admit) that I could find a girl with a heart of gold and the kind of beauty that comes from within and radiates outward. Kind, generous, understanding, self-respecting, non-materialistic….

I knew a girl like this once, and I let her go because she lives in the Philippines, and it’s not fair to both of us if we waited for each other without realistically exploring our options more local to both of us.

But damn… if she were already here, I probably wouldn’t be feeling this way.

-TJ, the suddenly anguished