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So. I went on a 3.5 hr drive NW of my current location. I took my antsiness out on the road, and driving did wonders for my pent-up agitation.
Sometimes I forget that when I’m cooped up in a room too long, letting the same thoughts stew over and over in my head, that a good cure for the blues is just getting lost in the wilderness (albeit on a paved road, but still). I hopped in my car at about 3PM today and I just started driving. I initially wanted to find a place called “Java the Hut” in Woodland Park in the hills, a cafe with wifi that I was hoping would be an out-of-the-way shanty, but sure enough I drove past it, along with a bunch of other cars in what looked like the main highway that ran through the town. I’ll check it out later, like *maybe* this weekend.
Then, instead of turning around and heading back home, I took a right turn at some roundabout, and 1.5 hrs later found myself driving through Aspen Park, another place I wanted to scope out for wifi but not in the immediate future… though it looks as if I just gave myself a preview of what was to come.
Did I mention I really really like Colorado? All these little mountain towns, like the settlements in the hills that you occasionally find next to the road (I ate at a restaurant on Highway 167, it was okay. Zula’s bar? Zuma’s bar? I can’t remember.) and places like Aspen Park, are places I’d consider living. Especially Aspen Park, which is like 30 to 45 mins from Denver, not really a bad commute considering there was a point in time I was driving 2 hours one way to get to work. “Quaint” describes it perfectly, for me. Unfortunately I couldn’t do that much exploring because I hit Aspen Park at about 6PM, and the sun was already gone behind the mountains. I hope it looks good during the daytime.
Anyway, while I was driving, I got to thinking. I’m not desperate for a girl, I’m desperate for a certain kind of companionship, like finding a good friend I can have deep discussions with that won’t make them feel weird or anything when I unload my shit. Friends back home are used to me doing just that, but I haven’t found anyone here that I can sit with, face to face, and just discuss the world without feeling like I’m being judged. Correction, I have met one girl, but one person can’t be the sole recipient of my vent… I need to find more, thoughtful people to hang out with, so I’m not always bitching to the same person about my internal turmoils that I just sometimes have trouble finding answers to.
Anyway, I drove my anxieties away, and had a chat with Law and Kyuu Hee over the phone for a little bit. I just simply need to meet more people, and hope for the best that I find ones that are generous enough with their time to listen to me unload, and would do so in kind to me.
-TJ
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IDEA: visit a new CO town twice a month. Click here to comment
*gears cranking*
Still lacking stimuli. Gears have been turning for a few days, I’ve been wondering why I’m restless… it’s because I’m not getting out enough, and that’s nobody’s fault but my own.
*gears cranking*
I had an idea. I’m gonna be here in CO for 2 more years. Colorado really is beautiful. From what little I’ve seen, I wouldn’t mind settling anywhere in this state. Thinking about it more, I probably wouldn’t mind settling anywhere in the Northwest. I like woods, mountains, and nature. I also like technology, business, and making work easier by building better tools. I think I should start looking at this state so I can begin to make plans for where I want to live after I get out of the military in 2 years. Los Angeles is nice, but I think I can find a better place to live and work, something not so fast paced. Living from goal to goal, achievement to achievement is fine, but a slower paced life is also something to consider.
*gears cranking*
Slower paced life? Maybe I should revise that… I should have a cycle of living slowly, then hitting the achievements… I can’t be constantly on high speed, I need to rest. Conversely, I can’t be constantly resting, I need to be moving.
*gears cranking*
I got it. I should try to find a place that’s populated, but not too far drivable distance from a place out in the “middle of nowhere” where I can choose to be left alone and receptive to inspiration. Or I should find a place that’s not populated (like Broomfield, CO), but not too far of a commute to work in a place conducive to building better business, i.e. a place like Downtown Los Angeles or Denver, where I would be able to make business contacts faster simply by being in a center of business. This appeals to me. I want that kind of versatility in my work/living environment. I want to be able to operate out of any office, cafe, shore, campsite or cornfield I choose for the day. I want my credibility to stem from my personality and my work and not the fact I am headquartered in a brick-and-mortar building.
*gears cranking*
I want I want I want. What do I need to do so I can cross that line from sitting on my ass thinking about what I want to do with my life and actually doing it? What kind of foundations do I need to lay down today so I can live out my dreams tomorrow? That’s the real question. A solution would be to sign up with a contracting company… I can get started seeing America (or even other countries) by signing up with one of these guys and filling positions in places I’ve never lived.
For now, I’m gonna have to stay low-tech. Visit a new town in CO, find a wifi hotspot, connect, and start creating. I’m an explorer… so I need to start living like one.