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I really need to come up with a better name than “update”… I might as well not have any title at all.

Well this isn’t an update like the others, I just haven’t had a heart-to-heart kind of dialogue here recently due to all that’s been going on. I have my job, then 2 classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays at UCCS in the evening, and also I have to squeeze in time to practice violin. And after violin I have to get sleep in there, and still maintain a minimal social life so my brain will be okay, meaning I try to call friends and go out as much as I can, but “as much as I can” typically ends up being on my weekends off, if that.

Let’s see… I got effed up this week, relatively speaking. I left my dorm room a mess on a night we had a surprise inspection, but really I should have seen it coming. I’ve been leaving my room in disarray for a while now, so it’s nobody’s fault but mine that I got caught, and that leadership is mad at me for keeping a dirty dorm room. Oh well, I cleaned it, and I’m moving forward… I’m sorry that they caught me like that, and I can only vow never to let it happen again. Besides… clean room, clean mind, and in my case clean conscience… I should just do everything right so that I have nothing to be guilty about and everything to be proud of.

Other significant happenings? I returned a SATA HD that was just sitting on a shelf here due to it being busted, which gave me back $185. The lady at the return station was trying to sell me a Wii, and I have to admit I thought about it for a good minute, but then decided not to, because I’ve gone this far without one, I don’t see why I have to buy one now, since I don’t really have any interest in playing Wii games at the moment. What I did walk out of the store with, however, I deem far worse than a new console…

World of Warcraft: The Burning Crusade. I suck. I let my addiction get the best of me, and I can only dream (or have nightmares, rather) of how bad this will affect me. I’ve made a vow only to play on the weekend, but as I stated above the weekend is when I go out, so really… why did I buy it? I’ll probably only be playing for a few hours every weekend, less than 5 most likely until my classes are over, and even then I’m not stopping class until I get my MS.

Everything in moderation, I suppose. Just like drinking… I’m not so averse to drinking that I’ll avoid it. Quite on the contrary, given the right company I like to partake just a little bit. But I only really do that maybe once every 2-4 months. That’s not aversion, that’s just me not wanting to push my drinking tolerance… I like being a cheap date.

Also, I’ve been kinda updating the rest of the blog, putting in categories, pages of stuff, adding links… pretty much just filling out spots that I’ve been wanting to update.

Well I don’t have much more to say. I did have an interesting dream where I was getting yelled at by an army Sergeant Major. In the course of her ripping my ass, she started mentioning something to the effect of how surprised she’d be if I said something that would solve all her problems. She actually repeated that twice, and then I said:

Umm… well, all the bad things that happen to me, all my problems, they become not-problems whenever I pray to God. I remember that this life is only temporary, and all the hardship, pain, and pettiness that I experience in this life will disappear when it is complete.

At this point I was weeping with joy, and she started to weep with me and ran off or disappeared… it’s hard to remember dreams. The bolded words are what I remember mentioning in my answer to her, and truth be told I’m surprised I even said something like that, but looking at it makes me happy, because it’s the truth. One thing I didn’t mention above was probably an assumption I made in my dream, which was that the next life would be heaven, and I know I can only get there by trusting that God has forgiven me for my sins (thanks to Jesus), and that I make a best effort to show that I am worthy of that afterlife and that I don’t take Jesus’s gift for granted.

Phew! I hate to wax religious like that… I know it puts some people off, but I should be able to talk about my faith once in a while, right? I mean, it’s my blog, damnit :D. Anyway, I’m feeling extremely peaceful, mostly due to my sprituality, but also because I’m tired from killing myself at the gym yesterday.

And now it’s time to go. To the mall. Laters!

-TJ