Well it looks like my credit fraud item has finally cleared itself up. I checked out my credit report on Experian, and it shows that as of the 29th of March (Today), there are ZERO potentially negative items on my credit report.
I just want to thank Mr. Frank Everett at Scott Lowery Law Office in New York… out of all the people who called me trying to collect on this account, he was the only one who mentioned the Fraud Affidavit found on the FTC website. Thanks.
I want to add the lesson I learned from all this. If you ever find yourself being accused of something you didn’t do, then don’t give up hope that you can disprove your persecutors. Knowing I had the truth on my side, I cooperated with the debt collectors, and actually inundated them with proof that I did not open the bad account. As far as debt collection goes, when the collector starts behaving like a bad reality TV actor, what with the screaming and threatening and general uncivility, chances are they are violating US debt collection legislation which strictly regulates what debt collectors are and are not allowed to do… this is why credit consolidation companies are able to write cease-and-desist letters. All a debt collector needs is a piece of paper saying to STFU, a letter that acts like a paper seal for so many asian demons.
-TJ
So I’ve been thinking. Alot of stuff has happened in my personal life during the last couple of weeks, and as revelations and epiphanous moments seem to occur regularly in my life I’ve now come to realize that my life is one epiphany after the next. Each time I have an epiphany of wisdom it feels like my eyes have been opened yet again, and that leads me to conclude that I have many such “eyes”, or rather my life and struggles and happy moments have many possible points of approach, numerous angles of attack, and each epiphany grants me wisdom to see my life in a new light and approach future obstacles with a greater arsenal of thought.
That’s how I’ve been growing up. Today I’m learning about being a man, and sometimes that involves just sucking it up when I’m going through a trying moment in life. I am experiencing what I think used to be a great deal of pain… the rejection from a woman (albeit very minute in this case). Not being able to look forward to spending my weekend with her, the prospect of never experiencing another one of her kisses, the thought of never holding her close again… such is the stuff of poems, love songs, and romantic movies. But today I am different… I am sad, but I accept this possible fate. Is the future ever written in stone? All I know is today I am without her, and today I’m not as happy as I was before.
So yesterday I talked with my dad. Among the numerous gems of wisdom he imparted to me in our discussion, he relayed something his grandfather told him when he was a young boy. Dad would walk around with his head down, always looking at the ground, and his grandfather often told him “Hey! When you walk, don’t look at your feet, but look ahead of you!” Sage advice, that… I have often caught myself looking at my current situation, feeling sorry for myself, wishing things were better, etc etc. But really, how does that help things? It doesn’t. What I should be doing is taking a moment to reflect, but walk on, eyes straight, ever-forward. This moment has already happened, I must keep my focus on the future and prepare for what’s ahead, make sure I know where I’m going, and make sure I’m getting there as time goes on.
Segue into the final part of my post, letting go of my past. I shall not endeavor to define myself by the hardships I have endured. I am not the nephew deceived by the uncle, or the student almost-failed from high school, or the son that doesn’t call home as much as he knows he should. I am TJ, and I have a God-given drive to see that I leave this world better than I found it. In keeping with eyes-forward, I need to work on forgiveness. There are people here who I’ve been mad at for a very long time, and I think I need to let go of their sins against me, as God would want me to. I mean, how in good conscience can I ask for forgiveness if I have refused it to others? I am a wicked servant. I think the person I don’t forgive the most is myself… when I don’t forgive myself, I don’t forgive others. When I don’t forgive myself, I usually tend to persist in the bad behavior that I am internally admonishing myself for… case-in-point, someone here slighted my friend, and I have yet to tell him I’m sorry. I think I’ve wanted to let this go for a few months now, but inside I’m still mad at him, and I can’t seem to let that go because I haven’t forgiven myself for being mad at him. It’s like I’ve only been mad because that’s what I felt I should be towards him, but truth be told it takes alot of energy to harvest negative energy to feed at a person, and it’s alot easier if I just forgive and let it go. So I think I’ll forgive him.
As far as telling him… I think I’ll keep that until I’m about to leave, because he’s emotionally needy and I think he’s a homo, and I don’t want him to get the wrong idea.
-TJ
I just realized something… people say you tend to find love when you least expect it. And when you’re looking for it, you won’t find it.
I think that when I’m looking, I have an idea in my head that I am actively trying to match, and if a girl doesn’t meet that match then I don’t pursue.
When I’m not looking, that criteria doesn’t exist, so when I meet a girl–without my expectations–I am pleasantly surprised and enraptured.
-TJ
Big. F#@*!ing. Caps.
Curse. Every. F#@*!ing. Third. Word.
That’s how F#@*!ING much I hate midshift.
…
So I woke up YESTERDAY at about 5AM. I try to sleep, end up falling asleep for 1 hour and waking up at 1PM. It’s now almost 8AM and now I need to fall asleep and I’m tired but WIDE AWAKE.
I’m having a very difficult time adjusting. arg. I need to do this without caffeine or energy drinks, maybe I’m just spiked up right now. I consumed about half a bottle of Vault energy drink about an hour ago, hoping that I would hit the caffiene crash at around8AM. Truth be told it’s only 7:36ish, but I still feel awake.
Anyway. I hate this shift.
And some other stuff happened… to be posted in a protected post.
-TJ
It was a take-home.
I’m so tired.
-TJ
Sorry to those that don’t fit the bill.
I will endeavor to be the same.
-TJ